[F4M] Comforting your best friend after a breakup leads to something more... [wholesome to lil spicy] [sad speaker] [reverse comfort] [first kiss] [kissing] [first time cuddling] [flirty] [best friends admitting feelings] [confession] [cute]

0:08 Hi. Yeah, sorry, I probably look terrible. I've been crying. Yeah. A lot. Which is embarrassing because I told myself I wasn't gonna cry anymore, and and then I got upset because I started crying again. And that made everything worse. So thank you for coming. Thank you for that hug. I really needed that.

0:48 I know I texted you kind of late. I just I didn't know who else to call. He broke up with me. Yeah, it's it's over. Officially completely um done. I I keep saying those words and they, you know, they still don't feel real. Like maybe it's just a misunderstanding and and we accidentally broke up. God, listen to me.

1:29 No, I'm I'm okay. I I well I'm not okay. I I will be though. I'm I am surviving. Barely. Can I ask you something? Was it obvious that things were going badly between me and him? Be honest. Really? You didn't know? I guess I got good at hiding it. Or maybe I got good at pretending things would get better.

2:10 You know, I kept thinking if I just tried harder, if if I was more patient or more understanding, more whatever, then somehow it would work. But it didn't. You know it's stupid. I don't think I even miss the relationship right now. Not really. I just miss having someone. You know? I I miss the habit of it.

2:42 The routine of having someone to text. Having someone waiting for you at the end of the day. And now this apartment just feels quiet. Yeah, exactly. Too quiet. Hmm? What? What is that? You brought me a cherry coke? Oh my god. Oh, that's so sweet. You always know what to do. Has anyone ever told you that?

3:27 It might seem small to you, but it's not. Just having someone who knows they can cheer me up by bringing me my favorite drink is special. Whenever something goes wrong, you just you're there. You never make a big deal about it. You never try to force people to feel better, but you just show up. I don't think you realize how rare that is.

3:59 Like, God, do you remember that time my car broke down? Three hours from home? Middle of nowhere, and you drove all the way out there. You didn't even complain. Well, not much. Or when my grandmother was in the hospital. You sat with me for eight hours. Eight hours. You brought those awful vending machine crackers.

4:31 Yeah. Yeah, you knew I hadn't eaten. Or when I got fired from that horrible job and you showed up with pizza. And three really terrible action movies. Actually, no, I think they were intentionally terrible. I think your goal was probably to make me laugh. And it worked, unfortunately. I don't think I've ever properly thanked you for any of that.

5:08 No, I I mean it. I You've been there for everything. Every disaster, every heartbreak, every stupid mistake, every success, every weird little life event, and and you're still here. How do you do that? Or maybe a better question is why? I mean, if if I had to deal with me this much, I'd probably be exhausted.

5:43 It's true. I do deal with you too, but I feel like you're just my rock. You know, you're the stable one in this friendship, and can I tell you something kind of awful? I think part of me is relieved. Not because we broke up, I I didn't want that, but because I I don't have to keep pretending anymore.

6:18 I I spent months trying to convince myself things were fine. Months. And deep down I I knew they weren't. I knew something was missing, and I just I couldn't figure out what. And you know, something we something we fought about a lot was that I um I I kept just comparing him to somebody. I I didn't mean to ever, but I know that it hurt him hearing me, you know, wish he was more like this other person.

7:07 It must have hurt. I I understand that, but you know, it's weird. Every relationship I've ever had, every single one, there's always been this moment where I think, why doesn't this feel the same? And I could never figure out what that was until tonight. Sorry, um, that sounded weird. Just forget I said that.

7:47 No, seriously, for forget it. I No, we we don't need to talk about that. Okay, stop stop looking at me like that. Because you're gonna make me say things, and I don't think I'm emotionally um prepared right now to say things. No, I'm look, I'm serious, okay? I just got dumped. I'm crying. My mascara is probably down to my chin.

8:18 This is not the moment for other hard conversations. I I'm not keeping anything from you. I just If I start to talk about my feelings, it's gonna be kind of a whole thing. And and maybe I just need a night of hanging with my best friend instead of saying more things that might change everything. But maybe telling you will help me understand why I'm feeling the way I am.

9:01 Especially about my breakup. So, you know how every time something good happens, you're the first person I want to tell. Same thing with something bad or exciting or stupid or whatever. It's always you who I think to text immediately. When I'm excited, I I I want you there with me. When I'm scared, when I'm somewhere along the way in our friendship, I I think that stopped being normal friendship feelings.

9:52 I I just I never let myself think about it because I was dating other people and you were my best friend. You were safe, you know, you permanent. You you're the person I've never had to worry about losing. So I just I I never looked, you know, too closely at it. I I And now I'm sitting here after a breakup, and all I can think about is how badly I wanted you to walk through that door.

10:30 No one else. So yeah. I just I just said it out loud. I actually said it out loud. Are are you Are you seriously laughing? I'm having a crisis and you're you're laughing?

10:56unknown God.

10:58 Of course you are. So you. So d God, do I need to say any more out loud, or do you get the gist? Whatever, I'll just say it. I I've been in love with you for years. Please say something. Anything. Sing a song if you can't think of anything to say, just say something. You're smiling. Why are you smiling?

11:33 Finally? What the hell do you mean by finally? Finally what? No. No, no, no, no, no. Explain immediately. You've known How how long? You're kidding. No, you you are absolutely kidding. You mean I've been having an emotional breakdown and and you already knew? Oh my god. I hate you. No. I don't, unfortunately.

12:12 I think the opposite is the problem. Okay, I'm gonna ask you something else, and it it's serious this time, okay? So don't don't laugh. Don't do that. Okay. When you came over tonight and I called you, and you dropped everything to be here. Was part of you like hoping this would happen? Yeah. Well good.

12:52 Because if I'm being totally honest, um I think part of me was too. I just I just didn't know it yet. Thank you. For showing up. For always showing up. And for being patient enough to wait for me to finally figure out what was right in front of me this entire time. Can I kiss you? Okay, the that was worth the emotional catastrophe.

13:55 Come here. Come closer. Will you stay with me tonight? I mean it's already the middle of the night basically. Maybe just I don't want you to leave, that's all. And maybe I also wanna keep kissing you. Something so nice about just being here with you and kissing. I really like the kissing. But really, I I just mean like hold me.

14:55 We can um cuddle. Yeah, like that. Um yeah, just put your arm around me. And now I can just move my head and kiss you as much as I want. I really love how you're always here for me. I just I never felt so cared for by someone. And I never really realized how nice you are to cuddle with. You're comfy.

15:46 I um I have to admit, I always wanted to cuddle, but I guess I never really knew how to ask. I know it it sounds silly now, but I I wish I would have. Maybe if I had been brave enough to ask, then I wouldn't have been stuck in this crappy relationship for as long. The power of cuddles. Who knew? I'm cold.

16:29 What do you mean? Oh, my nose. Yeah, it always gets cold. I don't know why. Actually, now that you mention it, my hands are pretty cold too. Feel them. I'm even cold like under my clothes. It makes kind of no sense. Here, give me your hand. Feel under my shirt, right here, just on my stomach. Why am I cold there?

17:03 We're literally cuddling and I'm I'm wearing a sweater. Yeah, you can keep your hand there. It's nice and warm. Mm-hmm. Feels nice. I hope you like this sort of thing. Cuddling and kissing.