Humanity's Soul Upgrade with Annette Bricca

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1:31 back to the show, returning Champion.

1:33 Oh, thank you, thank you. I'm so happy. I'm great. How are you?

1:38 I'm great. Thank you so much for making your trip down to the Next Level Soul studios. I appreciate I love it.

1:42 It's been a fabulous trip. I love Austin, love the studio. It's beautiful, and I even love to hear the words returning Champion even more. I feel like I'm on Wheel Fortune or Jeopardy, like the final round.

1:53 I've made it.

1:54 It's funny.

1:55 I've been saying that, I think basically since I started podcasting. It's just something that I always said to my guests when they came back. I was like, Oh, you're returning Champion and everyone Now it's become a thing in the Next Level Soul community that like people are like, oh, returning jam.

2:09 Winning the ticket and Willie Wanka like you had the Golden Ticket, Like I was so excited to even be a returning champion.

2:15 That that if I now, if today's the last day of my life, I made it.

2:19 Oh my god, Yes, thank you. I don't think it is, but I mean you are psychic, so hopefully you would. Yes, yes, I mean they'll let you know that at least.

2:27 Yes, yes, I think. But I think I'm good. So thank you for having me. Well.

2:30 Our last conversation did quite well. Yeah, people really enjoyed our energy together and it was it was so much fun. That's why I had to have you back.

2:38 So I wanted to.

2:39 I wanted to start talking to you about the we're we're going to talk about a bunch of different things, but you had something you wanted to talk about about.

2:47 This this cold case.

2:50 Yes, that's been around for a while, and then you have some insight on so I just wanted to let's start off there.

2:54 Yeah, happened.

2:55 So I have one of the things that I had told you the last time I was on And you know, people that know me, I've been doing this for for a long time. So as a child, I've always been working with the police in the FBI and helping find missing children.

3:06 And I mean that's a full time job.

3:08 So even though I do readings full time, I mean, I do you know I have done that since I was thirteen.

3:12 All the time, I don't very.

3:14 Often get involved in cold cases. And the reason is because I just actually don't have time for that. And I'm I don't want to say who cares, but I've been I'm so consumed with trying to help find missing children because hopefully find them alive or give the family closure that I never really thought about cold cases. But there was an opportunity recently where somebody in the know said, hey, there's this case that you know everybody knows about, the Jambonneer Ramsay case. Do you have some insight on it?

3:43 And I said, yeah, now I have more than insight.

3:46 I know the deal.

3:47 And they like what And I said yeah, And they said, well, why haven't you said anything? Well, I said, I actually, I never, It never occurred to me. I don't know, I said, because I'm so honestly, really daily, so focused on the work that I'm doing that so recently, so when I when this again, this opportunity came up, I thought, well, here's what I'm gonna do. I am going to tackle this like I would because even though I thought like I knew the answers, I thought, well, I'm gonna take this the further. I'm gonna do like I would do it with a missing child, so I would meditate this a little bit of a process. So I said, I'm gonna do it that way. And actually there was some surprises because what I thought I knew I was kind

4:30 of right, not right enough. But in then tackling it the process that I do it, not only do I feel like I know exactly what happened, but then Jean Benet came to me and has come to me continuously to the point where the other night in my hotel here in Austin, knowing that I wanted to say a little bit about it, I because I wanted to make sure I got it right.

4:53 But I did did it justice.

4:55 And at midnight I was woken up, and you know, she comes to me and was very clear about a particular part of the story that she wanted to make sure that I completely understood. I understood like the facts of it, let's say, like the like the details, I didn't understand the emotions behind it, that sort of thing between the people involved. When she wanted very carefully for me to get it, and I was crying, and I could see like as all these people involved, like like how they felt while it was happening, when everything unfolded.

5:33 That that actually changed my life. I have never had an experience like that. I've had a lot of experiences where people have come through. I had somebody recently. I have a client of mine that I've been doing readings for. She contacted me about a month ago and I had we had scheduled reading for three weeks out and she said, listen, I know that we're going to talk in three weeks.

5:51 But I have a son who is in Chili right now. And he was like a world like a wilderness survivor camp person. So he would go to all these different countries for many, many years and do this for a living. He was going to go to let's say Argentina for a month and work that gig, but prior to that, he was going to go to Chile some famous river and do some kayaking for a week or two. And he did that on a regular basis. And she knew that and whatever she said to me, he's missing in Chile.

6:20 So I know that you don't really help missing adults, but could you help and look into my son?

6:25 So I did, and.

6:26 Then we found, you know, we found that he was he was not alive. They found him that the embassy was involved, social media was involved. And his name is Miles. He had come through. And when he had come through, and she was still hopeful at that point, and there was a lot of search and rescue teams, and when he first came through, like the first day, she asked me to look into it.

6:46 He was like dancing. He was like rejoicing on the other side.

6:49 And so even though I had had a lot of people come through, I have never met a person in my life that was a happier person than Miles was on.

6:58 The other side.

6:59 So when I knew, I had to break it to his mother that he had passed. But she again, the search and rescue team was still going to go on for a couple of days. But I thought he was he's so fabulous. I couldn't wait to give her the message.

7:10 And then I thought.

7:11 That changed my life because that experience. He has come to me many times and it did change my life because it was a different level of I tell people often now he was one of the best people I've ever met in my entire life that I did not meet alive. He has changed the way I mean I I have kind of been known for telling people live in the moment. I thought, I thought I knew that from my own story, but from Miles, who did live in the moment and who's living in the moment on the other side and absolutely wanted me to tell everybody listen, he's more than okay, he's better than okay. So I thought, all right, that changed it. But now was Jean Beney coming through, and this what she told me the other night,

7:52 to see it from she because her message was cleared. I don't want you to just report the facts. You're not a news anger. Don't go out.

8:00 There and just say this. You need to be very careful.

8:03 And that when you do it, that you say it in a compassionate, empathetic way, that these people involved it doesn't ruin their life. And and because she does want her story to be told, but in the right way, but from your heart. I've never done that, not knowingly. It changed everything that I thought.

8:24 From that moment on.

8:25 So I am really extremely grateful for her. I am grateful from this opportunity and I also, you know, I thought long and hard about this because I can only imagine that when people hear this, you know, some people will think she's right on. I believe that all along other people will have their way in. And I'm not trying to convince anybody. I just believe strongly, like I do, you know, with missing children, when I get involved and again, because I follow the same process that when I find a missing child, because I don't just say, like, in five minutes, okay, this is what I think. Because I'm you know, really concerned, I get it right. And what I feel grateful to her because it because I don't.

9:06 I don't feel even when I was on last time, I told you that I had been kidnapped when I was a child, and one of the things that I wanted to do was one of the.

9:14 Guys on death row.

9:15 The other guy is out and he lives kind of not far from me, and I was kind of angry. I am still angry, and I was kind of angry, and one of my goals was that I wanted to get him, you know, I want to go get him.

9:26 After Jean Berenet, I don't feel that way. I feel. I feel sorry for him.

9:30 Alex, if you would have told me a month ago you were gonna feel sorry and you're gonna feel empathetic for your kidnapper, I would have said, you know what, no way, because I was actually not feeling empathetic. I was feeling, you know, poor me, even though I wasn't telling people for me, I kind of was still acting like the victim. Only until Jean Benet came to me did I realize and I don't mean that that it made me think differently. I actually, like, in one moment, had instant empathy for my empathy for my kid hpper.

10:03 To tell you that that blew me away that now I actually hope he lives a long.

10:11 Good life.

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10:24 Who would know that I could think that I wanted him to not live a long good life if I'm really being honest.

10:33 But now I actually I actually.

10:38 Believe or not wish I had the opportunity to bump into him and say, not only do I forgive you, but I hope you whatever time you have left, if it's five minutes or five years, you just from this moment on Live the best life you can and so but.

10:53 What did John Bay tell you that made you make the switch?

10:57 So I don't know how to start it if I should break it down what I believe happened. So let me tell you what she told me, and then I'm gonna break down when I see happening what she told me that when she told me she's so, she showed me what took place, and the people that are involved are people that she loves, and it was all not.

11:19 Nobody murdered her. Everything was an accident. So the thing is is.

11:25 That for all these years though, Okay, what Jean Benet has told me is that if she were able to say to the world, I don't want the world to destroy my loved ones lives, which they have been rumorable, she would like to say, no, I love these are my family, these are my people.

11:44 I love them. But something went wrong. This was a mistake. And then, you know, sometimes we do something wrong and then.

11:50 Because we panic, sure, there's a chain of events that take place that when we in hindsight look back, we're like, WHOA, why did I do that third thing? Because that then took it to an other level. I should have just had a cool or had I should have thought this through, but because a panic. So Jean Benet has been from the other side watching everything unfold for all these years, feeling very sorry. She you know, she doesn't want anything bad to happen to her loved ones. She wishes the world knows, hey, it was an accident. These people panicked, so then it got totally to another level. But she she showed me love. She showed me from the other side that she has been trying because what she other

12:33 told me is that you know, hey, you're not special. So even though you think you're gonna crack this, you're not special. Because she has tried to come through to a lot of people to say but they missed the mark about the love. And I think that the reason why I could get it again not because I'm so special, because I actually was doing what because I had this unique experience with my kidnapper currently that I don't love him that then because once she said to me, I want everyone to if you're going to say anything about this, you have to make sure they can feel the love.

13:07 So I said to hell, I don't know how to do that. She goes, well, I'm going to show you. And then in one second, she made me think of my kidnapper, and I felt over overcome with love, to the point where I say to people in my life, I say I have a daughter and a husband, and I say I have a dog Fred. I say, fred is the number one thing in my life, and two and three and four and five, and my husband's like, am I six?

13:30 I'm like, okay, my daughter's six or seven. But you know that's my joke. When she said I'm going to.

13:36 Show you what love is. The first person that came into my life was my kidnapper. But the feeling the intense love like I do for my dog, there's no thing on this planet that could have told me that that was possible, but not that I that like I was going to start to like. I actually felt it every single day since then, throughout the day, I wish him love. I'm like, wherever there you are, I am from a soul to soul level connecting with him, and I am trying to let him know I hope you have not a good like a fabulous day and sending him love. So once she did that to me, I thought, there's there's you know, I'm I'm sure I have a million other lessons to learn this lifetime.

14:24 It is the most profound thing.

14:27 Because I thought, here, I'm gonna come on, I'm gonna crack her case. I was missing the point. She doesn't want her case to be cracked. She wants it to be understood. She wants everyone to it. There to be a softness. You know. She reminded me that at six years old when she died, and she died as this beauty queen, a little cute, little cutie pie. Okay, she goes, I don't want it to be lost at anybody, because she didn't come into this lifetime thinking she was gonna She knows she was gonna die at six as a little cutie pie. The whole irony of her being this cutie pipe patch and was for everybody to remember this, but to remember the love part, because what she came here to do was to spread love and compassion and empathy.

15:07 And instead of everybody thinking, oh my god, this poor little girl was murdered, which she was, but not murdered. It was an accident, and she thought that she was because when she signed up for this lifetime, she thought that she was gonna come and and do what she did to me, but nobody got it because everybody, because everybody was so concerned and fixated on, like the police bumbling it that then it So I think she thought, all right, I'm gonna, you know what, I'm gonna deal with this psychic in New Jersey who's got this kidnapper that she's you know, hates, So you know what, let me help her because by helping her, she can get it.

15:45 And I did get it.

15:46 So yeah, So it was an accident. It was an accident. It was an accident.

15:52 It was so so so I would if I may, I'm gonna unfold what I believe strongly happened. But I also want to say that I don't want to get anybody in trouble, and I'm not trying to and I also don't want to get myself in trouble.

16:07 So yes, please just do what you need to do.

16:10 So I believe that.

16:13 So there are some facts of the case that everybody knows. There was one they did the autopsy. There was some pineapple in her stomach. Jean Benet kept telling me, focus on the pineapple. So that is the truth. The pineapple is a true fact that she was, let's say, enjoying pineapple okay, with her loved ones, but I don't know that she was enjoying it. So there was a family member who was eating pineapple. She let's say, helped herself to it. No big deal, okay, I believe this fam this, this number, this family member maybe didn't want her to have some pineapple, you know, no big deal.

16:47 And something ensued.

16:49 So a sibling rivally whatever happened, and there was an accident and she got hurt. But you know, I have brothers and sisters, and there's many times that you know that something actually deadly could happen.

17:02 But when he hurt her, he didn't kill her. She got hurt, Okay.

17:08 Then another family member who thought she died didn't want him to get in trouble, so she covered it up, which was Patsy. And she then in a panic again because again you have like a split second, I think, because when you were about to make a life or death decision like this, you don't think it through, you don't, you know, So she went into what she wanted and wrote this ransom note, this elaborate ransom note. Okay, So because again she again not thinking, I think Patsy, even Patsy Ramsey even after she did, I think she's like, okay, uh, this is kind of crazy, but but it was enough to keep everybody out of jail. So she wrote the ransom note. And I believe that that because she thought that she was dead. That's why she then was strangled.

17:59 I think Ramsey did it, but not to murder her daughter. I think she just needed to make it look like somebody else did it, and that's why she out of love. Think about this, she did it out of love to save her son. So everything was an accident. It was all out of love. Then the irony is is that then and again because of the time that it happened, the area that it happened. Then they started inviting all their family and from family members over and again. I don't think that it was even that. Patsy at the time was like so strategic that she's like, all right, I'm gonna contaminate the crime scene because I think you know she's now she's distraught because you know her daughter is dead. She's distraught. A bunch of people come over.

18:44 The crime scene was not contained, so now everything's contaminated.

18:47 And then it was like.

18:49 The perfect storm because then you could almost not even though they have been trying to like run the DNA many many times. There was a bunch of DNA that was contaminating. Then there were levels of DNA that they didn't even have enough of it. Then it took a long time. Then it was directly so. But the problem is is it destroyed everyone's life. Hats he died of cancer much earlier than she would have because of the guilt and the disease and all that.

19:13 The poor son's life.

19:15 You know, I don't I know a little bit about him, not much, you know, I think he's a fabulous human being. I feel such love and empathy for him too. And I'm not trying to call him out either. And I actually, you know, if anybody thinks that that is what I'm trying to do, they're missing the mark too, because this is really about not about I'm not even trying to get credit, like, hey, you know a net brick of salved A jumpre No I thought I was.

19:42 I actually thought that's what I was going to do. I want to say, this is about love.

19:46 So if somebody doesn't, if anybody thinks they want to go and you know, confront somebody, you know, everybody needs to leave everyone alone. Leave his the brother alone that his poor father lived his life. Everyone deserves to live. And let's give this family love and a break because Jean Manet was only going to live till six.

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20:19 So you know, I tell people all the time when we die, sometimes we don't die just in our sleep at ninety eight years old, knitting and you know, with a cup of warm teap by the cough our end tables. Sometimes we die tragically. We always know as souls that that's where.

20:34 We're in for.

20:35 Like my kidnapping, I knew, like I told you, I didn't know at the time, but I knew after it happened that that's what I signed up for. You know, I joke around now that I am going to when I get to the other side complaining to customer service and say, okay, we need we need somebody you know, higher level in customer service to really.

20:53 I need to speak to a manager.

20:55 Yeah, yeah, you manage to speak.

20:57 If that measure is not available, I'll wait when it's that person back the shift, because you know, it was pretty challenge, but she knew and she signed up for it because she sure enough thought that was what was going to happen.

21:08 And that is my message.

21:09 Yes, beautiful message.

21:10 Beautiful message. Now I wanted to ask you what is on the other side when spirits do come through you as a medium, what is the most common message that they want to give to loved ones?

21:22 And if I may just say, this is for entertainment purposes only, and I am not a uh detective lawyer. I'm not trying to get anyone arrested, which everyone loves that.

21:36 For sure, got it.

21:38 Well, I think that they're trying to tell me love, which I never again I thought I had this down.

21:46 I've only now with Miles.

21:48 And now Jean Benet and a lot of people have come through and you know they yeah, love. But that is the whole thing because Miles is the one that kicked it off. If I didn't have this experience with Miles, I would not have done the genre anything because I I wasn't doing like when my client reached out and said my son is missing, I wouldn't or you know, people have done that before and I and I if they're not a child, I'll help, but I usually say, hey, it's not really my air of expertise.

22:17 I'll see what I can do.

22:17 But I but but but in the moment, Myles is like, Nope, you're doing this. And I just said instantly said of my client, Yep, I'll do it. I thought, oh, whoa, what am I agreeing to?

22:25 Okay?

22:26 And then he came through instantly and he made it easy for me. Miles said to me, I'll do the work, huh you And he showed me himself dancing to show me love. Everything that he told me to tell his mother was about love. When it was confirmed they found his body and that they then like everybody, thousands of people in so you know, through social media that knew him throughout the world, all these young people that he helped, they said, this man changed my life. He he you know, I was either like a kid struggling or maybe not.

22:56 But he showed me the meaning of life. He would come to my tent with his art monica in the morning and sing and dance and he anything that I know as a person a foundation I got for Miles, and it was love.

23:08 He is love. So he made me feel loved than John Benay.

23:12 And now I know that in the past when people would come through, and I would try to give the person the message. I should always have started with love, and I don't think I did. I because I wanted to get the facts. I wanted to wow the person. I wanted to say, you know, things that I couldn't know so they knew, which which is good too. But but I think I should have ended with the love, because you know, I did say many times. So when when I was in California, I was started to be known as like a famous medium, and I didn't want to be a famous medium because I really liked to do it. I was kind I was kind of scared of that. I was there's a little girl that kept coming to me by.

23:47 My refrigerator who was dead. I was like, well, I don't.

23:51 Okay, did you see then?

23:52 When? When?

23:52 And by the way, when when you see people do you see them physically like in or do you see them in your mind?

23:57 Well, I would prefer only in my mind.

24:00 But every once in a while, way more.

24:03 Than i'd like, I actually see them.

24:05 Is there anybody here today?

24:07 No?

24:08 But but and I would love to keep it that way, but it also catches me off card, you know, and as it would, it does listen you don't, so I'm always freaked out by it.

24:19 And so the thing is is that, you know, I said.

24:22 When I was starting to do the mediumship, Okay, I don't really want to be known for this, I you know. But and I think now in hindsight, the reason why I don't want to be known is because I meant I would mention like I would do a reading for somebody, and then in the moment they say, oh my god, you're right, that is my loved one. You would hit it on the head. You're telling me things I could not possibly know. Thank you, this is life changing. But then two days later they would call me and they would say, okay, yes I did say it was life changing, but you know, did they say anything anything else? And I would feel like, oh, I'm missing the mark. So I realize now I didn't love to do it because I was missing the point. If I left that person

24:59 who let them know that it's about love, okay, they're more than okay on the other side, and they want you to be more okay and live it up, live your best life here, I would not have been getting those phone calls every two days after it. So I because again I thought, look, at me.

25:17 I missed it.

25:18 So that is what I believe they have always tried to tell me, and now going forward, So now I'm excited. Now I'm like, oh, I have like told the spirit world okay, I'm open for business.

25:29 You know, if you're on the other side and you want to talk here, I am.

25:32 You know again, I didn't want to do it, but now because I now, I feel like I'm I want to hand out love.

25:38 Racets, you know, I'm you know, what's really fascinating is that this idea of i mean, sharing love and putting love out into the world is something that is so needed now, and it seems like we're going to be needing more and more of it, yes, as as the world starts to unravel a bit more. I mean, these last four years and now we're in the fifth year of this decade, have been probably some of the most trying in human history, well at least within the last one hundred and fifty years. Yeah, I mean there's been a lot. I mean, we've had it much worse than we have now, but things are shifting and changing in such a way that it is very difficult to even hold on to the bar on the ride it's getting so crazy, so fast. In chains are changing faster than

26:31 they have ever changed in human history. We've had tougher times, no question, but we've never had the kind of change and the abruptness of the change ever, one on top of.

26:45 The other, the speed that it's happening, and our inability to even though we all by right higher, to adjust to it in a way that we're not freaked out. So now that I even in this last so fifty seven years old, but in the last three, you know, thank you, Jean Benet taught me a life lesson that if I could bottle it and hand it out, I hope Jean benay Goes comes through to every single human being on the planet and for one second puts that that love feeling in everybody.

27:17 Because now it.

27:19 Has changed everything that I feel about everything. I actually am so much kind or nicer in a different way that you know.

27:26 What's something.

27:26 I was checking out of my hotel today, and when I was checking out the girls, the young girl said to me, I just have to tell you, you're the most loving person I've ever met.

27:36 I go Nobody's ever said that, Okay, not only has they never said it, Okay, Okay, I'm not the most loving person at all, but because this just happened, I said.

27:46 Okay, that's really feeling unbelievable. I go, I'm just curious, why would you say that. She goes, well, I'm sure you hear her all the time.

27:52 I go the opposite.

27:55 I've heard it for the last three days, and she goes, well, you've changed my life.

27:59 So strangers think about that? How powerful I mean?

28:02 Because if I'm just checking out and I'm saying room number blah blah blah, that's nice, why would she say love if it's not coming through my pores?

28:12 And the funny thing is that that people will if you were able to. This is the thing that people don't understand. When they want to change the world, they need to change themselves. Yes, because yeah, because now you affected that, Yeah, and she's going to affect somebody else.

28:26 And so the interesting thing is I said those exact words last time I was on the show. I said, you know, if I do a reading for you and I help you, and then you come away from that experience, whatever that is, and now you're vibrate different and it's a ripple effect. What I didn't realize because I was still angry with my own life and my kidnapper, and I was my mom also was part of it, as you know, So I kind of forgave my mom, but I really love my mom. She's not the one that's benefiting.

28:54 So after now I felt love. Okay, I can forgive.

29:00 And not and love and forgiveness are difference.

29:01 So not only do I forgive my kidnapper, forget forgive that's not enough. I want you to have a loving, fabulous life. And I'm gonna and you know how I'm gonna help you. I'm gonna send you love every day. I am gonna wake up every day and before I even like say to the universe thank you for my life, I'm gonna thank you for his life. Because that is how the ripple effect works. And that is what I recently got. That's that's it.

29:27 And this is the thing that's something that people have a difficult time wrapping their heads around because they're looking at it from the point of view of being in.

29:35 This three dimensional realities that we're here.

29:38 Is that you know, I've gone through trauma on my life, You've gone through trauma in your life.

29:43 Looking back, I wouldn't.

29:45 Change it me either.

29:47 I wouldn't change it either. It was part of who I am and it made me up.

29:52 Was it was it pleasant? No?

29:55 But change isn't pleasant when it when it's real change. And I always equate it to like going to the gym.

30:02 You work out.

30:03 It's not pleasant to strain your muscles and tear your muscle fibers so it can then reheat, you know, rebuild itself up and go. You need to do a teardown in order to build up right. The teardown is very difficult, and that's where the trauma comes in. We'll be right back after a word from our sponsor, and now back to the show. Now, that is the challenge, is that the contrast that we need to be able to grow as souls. We need contrast. It's not pleasant, but if we didn't have the contrast, we wouldn't know any different.

30:39 I've always said there's an analogy I always uses, like if you were born in a Michelin Star to a Michelin Star chef family and all you ever ate was Michelin Star meals.

30:52 Well, you want machroine cheese want But.

30:54 The point is that they don't without. But the thing is that if you've only eaten Michelin star our caliber meals your entire life.

31:03 Well, you have no concept, you don't have a contrast.

31:06 So McDonald's would be a completely different Yes, so you would need, absolutely need to have a McDonald's or a mac and cheese from a box to understand what you have. But so that contrast is where the problem is. But nobody, nobody wants to deal with the heavy lifting. Nobody wants to deal with the contrast. But without it, we can't grow and anything. If anyone's really truly honest with themselves, they look back at their life in the moments they grew were the toughest times of their life, but they made us who we are.

31:38 Yes, yes, for sure.

31:41 I mean I have said for many years that I when this had happened to me at a young age, and then I realized that, okay, this is my life, whether or not I wanted it to be, you know, and then you know, within you know, five chunks of time, ten years of time, you know, it was more accepting it, and I kind of learned how to deal with it and to you know, make it my life. But not only would I not change it, I wouldn't the only thing that would change is that I wish I got the message of love way sooner, because again in my own story, I think this, Jean Benet again reminded me I died at six on purpose. In it, I was only going to live to six. Remember, and I do know that, I actually do know that she didn't she

32:22 should have had to remind me, but I but what she reminded me.

32:27 Was my experience.

32:28 I was supposed to not just help find missing children, which is why that happened to me, but to learn love because I didn't have to live in a life of anger. I could have been loving the world because I was. Even though I do know because I had mentioned before I had a near death experience. I thought the near death experience in the moment and even up to the doing your Last show, I said it gave me an idea of the bigger picture. I think too, I missed that mark too, because the near death experience was supposed to make me realize that there is a bigger picture, so you don't have to be afraid of dying, not dying that But and I I think I told you when I had the near death experience, I experienced

33:11 love where it felt like I was being in a warm blanket like embraced by other condition envelope of love, which I wouldn't never felt, never have felt like that until Jean Beney the other day.

33:21 I get it.

33:22 So I believe Universe that all right, let's give you this little let's okay, we're gonna give her a near death experience so she can learn love.

33:29 I didn't learn it.

33:30 I learned that there was something on the other side more than this. So I think Jean Benet said said, okay, you know what, We're gonna give this this chicken, New Jersey and opportunity to learn love. Okay, she's she's gonna get it. And I did get it. So I believe that that's the only thing I would change that I wish all these times that people have come through and all the readings that I've done, I I want the message to be loved. Because I kept saying, you know, get through the tough times like you, and I had kept saying like, plow through it, yeah, pall through it, because you do need to and live an intentional life.

34:03 But live love yourself, love others, forgive others, and have a loving spirit, not of fear.

34:10 Because it is the game changer. It has changed me. I am, I literally am a changed person.

34:19 But let me ask you, though you you've all this time, you've had access to the other side. You had a near death experience, which not everybody has, so you had an insight to it. But yet there was still anger, there was still resentment. Yes, there was still yes and all.

34:33 This kind of stuff. Yes, So what was it?

34:37 I mean, I understand the John Benaga when she came in kind of reminded you of it. But is it because you were still so caught up in the drama of this life, yes, and the emotions of this.

34:47 Life, the part that you're playing in this movie.

34:50 So even though I was talking a good game, and I don't mean that I was acting because when I've been doing readings, every time I tell somebody, yeah, I'm coming from pure and tow, I always want the reading to help the person, whether they you know, they like the message or not.

35:05 So I don't want to say I was acting it, but I did miss the mark. What Shan Benet did was she.

35:11 Made me love my kidnapper because when she told me, listen, I don't want you to go on anything. Do not tell my story unless if you understand the love, because I don't want. I don't not only do I want nobody to get in trouble. I my my whole, everyone in my that I love, His life has been ruined. I signed up in this lifetime to die at six years old because I.

35:34 Agreed to this because I wanted everyone to learn love. That was what she was here for.

35:39 Everyone missed the mark and then she so, she said, don't you know this is not about you. You're not gonna go on anyone's podcast or or tell anybody. Don't don't tell anybody about me if you can't get loved. So I said, no, I got it, but she knew I didn't. So she made me like I said, I don't know how in that moment.

35:58 I wasn't thinking about my kidnap when I said to her, O can I get it? And she knew I didn't. One second later, my kidnapper.

36:07 I felt my kidnapper, but I felt love for my kidnapper, which I've never experienced. It was a feeling and it was when I was interacting with her. So once she did that to me, then I got it. Because until I felt that, I no longer had because I'm not out to get him anymore.

36:24 I was not.

36:26 I want him to live a sensational love, a life of love. So when I got that, Okay, that was the difference.

36:34 So I think that.

36:38 Because I could feel it, because if I didn't hate somebody so much, think about that, because I, like you said, if I wasn't eating Michelin Star food all the time, you know, then I'm not craving macaroni and cheese or you never had macroi cheese, don't even know what it is?

36:53 Wait, you can.

36:54 You can boil something.

36:55 From a box and then you can eat it eleven minutes later and kind of like it, and but it's terrible for you.

37:02 Okay, let's try it. So I had to hate.

37:05 I had to be like that, that person that kind of I had a crazy life. Now I'm fifty seven, I think I'm on a mission. I'm gonna go after my kidnapper, you know. So she chose me because you know, again, I'm not so special, But she chose me because she thought, okay, I can maybe get through to her because she hates him so much that now she actually came public a year ago, so she's on a mission.

37:28 So I'm gonna tell I'm gonna teach a nets and love.

37:31 She did it, So that is the difference. That was the difference. So again, I'm not so special. She chose me because I was, because I wasn't getting the message.

37:41 So you were prime, You were primed, you were primed for her.

37:45 Yes, that's something I've noticed with the other side is that when they come through, they come through or affect people who are prepared for the message. Yes, they didn't pick anybody in the circumstances of your life.

38:00 Primed you as.

38:00 A perfect candidate to receive this understanding and be a tool of the of her on the other side to kind of spread this message and this message.

38:10 You know, think about it.

38:11 Miles primed me too, because Miles, who I wouldn't who I would not have agreed to do because I again, I was actually working on a missing child case when my client reached out to me and I and I don't really ever take on two cases at that time because then I.

38:23 It's too much.

38:24 Well it's too much, and then I think, Okay, if I got a detailed wrong, then I I don't think why, I just am a human being.

38:29 I got it wrong.

38:29 I'm like, well, why would I mix two big cases? So I would instantly have said no. Miles made me say yes. While I was saying yes, I thought, what am I? Why am I agreeing to this? Okay Miles?

38:40 And then Miles made it easy because Miles said I'm gonna do it all the work. He did make it easy.

38:45 Miles set me up for them when the Jean Benet thing happened, because I wouldn't, you know, There's been a lot of people who have asked me about her throughout my life.

38:52 I've never gone there, but I don't know why.

38:55 I just and I would say, well, I'm, you know, so busy, you know, helping with missing children. I don't have to because I actually wasn't brave enough to even look at why I'm not going to go there. But I wasn't ready to go there until Miles happened. He taught me love in a different way.

39:09 He primed me.

39:11 Because he's so loving. And then she then so, it's it's so interesting.

39:17 Your your frequency seems to have risen at all because love is the highest frequency. So that's what the that's what the hotel clerk.

39:25 Yes, yes, you don't know it.

39:27 You don't feel it, yes, but people do pick up on that energy. Yes, at the same way you walk into a room and you meet somebody and you're just like, oh, I want to take a shower because the energy is so heavy and right and negative and things like that. So that's what people are picking up I wanted to.

39:45 We were talking about changes happening so much and people not being able to adapt. It almost sounds like humanity right now. It has been in a deep water adventure if you will, or exhibition ex to you know what I'm saying, expedition expedition all the way down at the bottom of the Marianna Trench. But when we come up to the surface, if you don't do it properly, you'll get the bends. Yes, we'll be right back after a word from our sponsor, and now back to the show.

40:22 It seems like humanity.

40:23 Is getting the bends right now because things are changing so much. You're not We're not able to acclimate fast enough. Throughout history we've been able to change this happen.

40:32 It was very slow time.

40:34 You're time to get used to it, or from.

40:37 So from the movies to VHS, from VHS to the video store, from the video store to DVDs.

40:45 These are years.

40:47 Decades, then streaming shows up and then moving music, and then all of a sudden it start. Now it's so fast that you can't even catch up anymore.

40:57 You know, it's interesting.

40:58 I said to my husband Sars, I was watching Netflix and it kept popping up on my kind of newest TV. As of October fourth, your Netflix will no longer work. It's not gonna be compatible with your TV. And I go, this is a.

41:11 Scam because it's a new TV.

41:13 So on October third, at twelve o one, I purposely stayed up watching and I said, I'm gonna sure enough twelvel one my show stopped. I'm like, no, I need a new TV. Okay, so we get the new TV. My twenty eight year daughter's like, you need to streating me TV. I'm like, I'm pretty sure I don't. She's like, yes, should do it.

41:30 So we get it.

41:31 I call Verizon because now I need a whole different box, this whole thing. My husband said to me, if my poor parents were alive, they would know. My father would not be able to watch a ball game any longer because he would not understand.

41:44 It's too complicated.

41:45 I can't I don't even I can only watch even though my TV can do everything. And my daughter's like, okay, Mom, you're either gonna stop watching TV or because I'm not asking you any longer, how to get on Channel four, how to get on Dateline or to watch Netflix. Okay, I told you ninety four times. I can't even get it.

42:03 So it is because you're right.

42:05 The world is going so fast now that we can't keep up, and then it is too much and we do feel overwhelmed.

42:11 And the older generations are like, you know, you and I are of similar vintage, so you know we were, you know we were we saw what the seventies, you saw the sixty late sixties and seventies and eighties. We were in a generation we have two hands, we have two feet in both both sides, one pre Internet, one post Internet. Yes, so we we actually were right in the middle where that transition generation. But the older like my parents generate, they it's getting so difficult for them, and even for our generation, it's it's moving so fast that we're just like son of them. Hit oh yeah, where my kids are Like.

42:48 If that's what I mean?

42:50 So, like he said, if his parents were alive, he said my father. They could not watch TV because I can barely watch TV. Okay, so you're right, So so it is hard.

43:01 So if you can.

43:02 So if those things, those daily things, those daily technocological advances are too much, then imagine like when human things happen, when you fight with your husband or wife, or you have financial problems, not okay, the things that used to be able to you know.

43:17 You know, I also got I read in my kitchen.

43:18 I got a new microwave. My husband's like, order a microwave. I said, okay, yeah, whatever. I called them ninety four times at work. I'm like, okay, you don't. You don't just get a microwave. It has an air fire, has an oven. He goes, we just make popcorn. Get the I go, none of them, just make mackworn.

43:33 Okay.

43:34 So I got whatever the lowest, the least amount. I said to my husband, we need to read the manually.

43:40 He goes, Hi, I go, well, you can't even open it has a child safety you have to It's so crazy.

43:47 But imagine, but that's just like stuff talking about like the world. That's what I'm saying.

43:54 So if you think of just a person, now you have the stuff happening. But then you have things in your life happening you could easily.

44:03 Unravel because just watch the television. Just watch it all.

44:08 Adds up, you know if you can't now you used to be able to use your microwafe. Now you can't understand it. You can't watch TV. So those things would help you.

44:14 Really, your phone's not working.

44:15 Your phone's not working now you know everything's.

44:17 Your smart house? Does that working?

44:19 Right? If you have a smart house and that goes wrong, you can't, nothing opens your locked inn or whatever. But then not now, adding your problems at work, you promised with your navy, your problems with your kids.

44:29 The economy problem, economy is going down, the economy wars overwhelmed.

44:35 Okay, and god forbid.

44:36 If you watch the nightly news every day, yes you're just gonna shoot yourself.

44:39 Yes, yes, crazy, Yes, yes it's crazy. So then let me ask you.

44:43 All right, so you know you are psychic, So I would like to know what you think is going to happen the rest of this year and what's going to happen. I think closing out this decade because I've heard what's coming. I talk about it on the show a lot. Because a lot of people are very worried about it, but I try to frame it in a way to understand what this is going to be and how to deal with it as it moves forward.

45:07 Because we've all had challenges in our life.

45:09 We've all had challenging, challenging times. You know, the economy has not always been We went through two thousand and eight, the crash of two thousand and eight, you know, the different crashes in the nineties. You know, the eighties was this big boom. The seventies remember when you know you couldn't even get gash all of these things. So we have been through challenging times before, but it's it's never.

45:30 Been on all on all you know.

45:34 Platforms at the same time, right, you know, it's the economy, it's war, it's religion, it's medical, it's school, it's entertainment, it's media. Like all things are changing so fast.

45:45 So i'd love to hear what you think.

45:47 Well, so that's really interesting that you're saying that, because when I was on last time, I said something on your podcast that I had never said to anybody ever.

45:55 Really it happens, and I thought, why would I say something like that? So I talked about the election.

46:00 We talked about I was kind of involved in you know, I was involved in uh some intel with the assassination attempt in the beginning. And then I and then you said, we've talked about You said, so you so I'm getting in that you're stick going to say that Trump's not gonna win or Harris. And I said, yes when I when I in hin state, when I think about it, I answered it wrong.

46:23 But that I said, I don't know why I said.

46:25 I said, and I have actually not only I think he's not gonna win and I think she will win. I've never been wrong about an election in all my years, since I was a kid.

46:35 Ever, I would never brag. I don't because even if it's true, you know, I don't want to.

46:42 It's a fifty to fifty shot. Let's just call it what it is. Yeah, it's a fifty to fifty shot. You know.

46:46 I sometimes when I do a reading, I joke around and say, listen, if I was a vacuum cleaner salesman, there's no warranty on this.

46:53 I am not guaranteeing this.

46:56 When I made that prediction, you could imagine, oh when it happened, Oh yeah, the first thing I did was had an emergency meeting with my spirit gud.

47:06 I'm like, are you kidding me? Why would you let me do this?

47:12 That was a lesson for me too, because what I kept telling everybody is nothing less forever.

47:17 We gotta go through changes.

47:19 I missed the mark didn't matter, and I kept saying, it doesn't matter who's the president. But I wasn't even Actually again, I was saying, it doesn't matter who's the president, but I'm gonna predict it what I should have done, and I said, listen, whoever we want, whoever you think, doesn't matter because for four years, the universe knows what it's doing. It knows who needs to be Whether you like Donald Trump or not. If whoever ends up winning that day, the universe is not making a mistake.

47:48 Okay, So we don't need to.

47:49 Recount ballots whatever. Whether you like him or not, who cares. It is what it is.

47:54 Because even in my own.

47:55 Life, a lot of things, like you said, change, but I actually can see, Like I actually talk about saying love, Donald Trump got love today for me. You know, I'm just loving the world because I understand that all of the things that are happening all the very challenging things, because I do think that what the universe, the reason why we're having all these changes one on top of the other that's making us as humanity panic is because humanity is saying, Okay, we've given you guys long enough, honestly to get your act together, and you have it.

48:29 So now we realize we can't just keep it at snail's pace, you know, you don't have you know, ten years in between DVDs and then netfling, you know, So now we're.

48:37 Gonna just bat We're gonna you know, we're gonna do opposite.

48:40 Well, and that is just the equivalent of us, you know, as humans as a soul. Here in this incarnation, we get from the universe a tap on the shoulder, correct, a whisper, a whisper.

48:53 Hey, maybe you should do this.

48:54 Yeah, And as we by the way, by the way, and maybe a little little tap, little push, and we continue to not listen, and every single time we don't listen.

49:03 A little louder, little it's a.

49:05 Little louder little heart attap till the sledge hammer.

49:07 Comes, until you get pushed down the stairs.

49:10 Right, yes, or it's a car accident, so sorry.

49:13 We didn't mean I told you fifty times, you didn't get it right. Right.

49:16 So that's what's happening to humanity right now. Yes, we're at the sledgehammer moment.

49:20 Yes. So what I do believe is I so the presidential.

49:24 Election again, which I missed the mark, which again who cares?

49:28 Who won? The right person? One? And again a lot of people are gonna not love what I have to say. But it doesn't matter who's what their name is, okay, because if we if we believe in love, we believe in the bigger picture. I actually believe it because you can talk it. But if you're still defensive and you're so.

49:46 You want to fight everything, I believe that all of these things that are gonna happen are happening because the universe is saying, okay, you know what, everybody who's not getting it, we're gonna bombard you because you need to just understand Russ and love live your life that way. Because like you, we mentioned the economy a little bit last time, and when I was about to say something you still listen to, I just want to say a net we're due. You know, this is the history books.

50:13 Every eight years, we're ten years overdue. So whatever you're going to predict, you might be this psychic, but you don't need to be psychic because we're overdue.

50:22 Okay, you're right.

50:24 We'll be right back after a word from our sponsor. And now back to the show.

50:34 All of the things that are going to happen, all the challenge, all the wars, all all of the problems is about I think us evolving to that next level. But what I did say on your show last time, I believe that a couple of years that not only will we have all these changes, but I believe.

50:50 That like aliens. And again I said, and don't talk about aliens because because I thought, well, I don't have time for Alians.

50:57 You know, I'm so busy finding missing children, triggate alien again miss the picture.

51:02 Can't forget aliens because alien, I've had experience with that. I don't talk about it often because people think, oh, you know, that's kind of weird. But I believe that now.

51:11 And actually when I did your show, then that drone stuff in New Jersey happened. I live in New Jersey. Everybody's like, oh my god, my cousin's okay, my husband's cousins, this big Italian family.

51:23 Right, We're like, oh my god, you predicted these these these are not drones, right, these are the aliens. I'm like, my husband's like, could you just do.

51:32 It like a family, you know, you know, get all my family members on one chat and let's just you know, take care of this. I said, well, but wait a minute, Vinny. You know they're onto something. Because the thing is that I believe that. That's the next thing when I said about the aliens that I just touched on that I believe because we're not gonna get it that now aliens are like, huh okay, let's let's let's let's deal with these Earth links, you know, these idiots.

51:56 You know, we gotta take a stop over.

51:57 We gonna we gotta drop in a little bit, because because the universe needs our help, because they really aren't getting it.

52:03 So I think that first contact, yes.

52:08 That has to happen.

52:09 So I do believe that, like when you said, what is gonna happen, I think that that we will feel individual people will feel like their life is more than a pressure cooker individually. I'm not saying that to make anybody panic. I'm saying that to recognize that that like, no, yes, it is okay, it is an a pressure cooker. Now what am I going to do about that. Let's have a plan. But let me stop panicking, like when I decided with my kidnapper that when I got this information that it lives not too far from me, and I'm gonna do all these things and tell my story.

52:39 I missed the market.

52:39 I didn't realize love because I wasted a year and a half of my time being angry.

52:45 If I if I.

52:46 Would have came on to anybody's podcasts and told my story out of love, think about that, because that was my That's what I was supposed to do.

52:54 What not not throw more missiles at this guy? But I should have I should have learned and set and love.

53:02 So I believe that now aliens come and all this thing happened, and Donald Trump and all of these crazy things, so that we can manage our lives better, we can love better, we can evolve better. So I do think that it is about us all taking personal responsibility and looking at our lives, whatever pressure cooker we're in, and then you may change this long way because a lot of people are gonna have a lot of financial problems a lot of jobs are gonna change. I told you last time that I believe that, like medicine's gonna change.

53:31 I absolutely believe it has to. Okay, it has to.

53:35 It's not I said, I don't believe we're gonna take pills any longer.

53:39 You know, surgeries will change.

53:40 But I believe that everything will happen even faster than I thought, because I believe again, Jean Benay didn't come to me because she has nothing better to do.

53:48 And and you know, she came to.

53:50 Me so that I got it because she thought, Okay, she's not gonna stop going on podcasts, so let's get her to say the right things, you know, And we're gonna give you another opportunity to finally, because we don't want you to send the wrong message, and we don't want anyone to go after this guy that did this to you to either. You want you're telling everybody you want to help people that you're here, that you're going to change people's lives, But how are you changing them if your life isn't changed.

54:14 So I get it now.

54:15 So all these things happen, like you said, so humanity vibrates higher so that we do get it. So that while we're here doesn't matter the time from six years old, if you're miles in your early you know, late thirties, whatever, because your time frame doesn't matter is how you spend it, and that's what matters. And I think that that is the whole message, because if you're able to live an evolved life enough where I think that I'm kind of evolved.

54:41 Let's say I don't know more than.

54:42 The average person who knows don't know, but yeah, kind of evolved.

54:45 But I'm but I'm.

54:47 Understanding more because now i'm I'm I'm understanding that I absolutely don't know anything, Okay, so I'm open to learning.

54:54 And I think that that's what.

54:57 People should do when you go through a difficult time, say you know, show me what I don't know, help me, help me see it from a different way where I don't feel like a victim. Or if I am having financial problems, I don't need to panic. I understand I need to go through it for a different reason. If that means I have to downsize my house, maybe, if that means I'm my credit score is going to be head for a while, maybe so I need to get a job.

55:17 Maybe be open to these things have to happen.

55:20 Like you said, your spirit guider whomever, for a while is whispering in your ear.

55:24 You're not paying attention.

55:25 So if all of a sudden you have a shift in your job, it's not me as universe is trying to pick on you.

55:30 The universe is helping you. We don't think of it that way.

55:33 I mean, when I've had two staff positions in my entire life, fired from.

55:40 Both, probably too too many, right, oh.

55:42 Way too many.

55:43 It happened when I was a young young man. Money was crazy back then. It was the nineties.

55:49 Yeah, but it was.

55:52 You know, I got let go of I got let go of one job, and I was already preparing to kind of open up my own shop.

56:00 You should say you're welcome.

56:01 I was, and they and they.

56:03 I probably would have not moved from that job because the money was so good.

56:07 Of course, the money was so good. It was I could do it the job in myself to get fired. And the second I.

56:12 Got fired, two days later, I got another another gig, and then I opened up a shop.

56:16 Three months later, right, and it was it was all part of the plan.

56:19 If I wouldn't have had that new supervisor show up who did not like me and did not wanted to be out because I was the most I was the most expensive editor by thirty grand of anybody else in the department. Then I wouldn't have been able to do what I was able to do. So those kind of moments, when those moments show up, understand that they're's not happening to you but for you.

56:42 For that's that's the key.

56:44 That's the key for you. So you mentioned the economy, That's something that I mean, as of this recording, the stock market's starting to get really, really kind of sensitive about what's happening with the tariffs and what's happening with the economy and all the stuff that's happening in Washington.

57:01 So where do you see this happening for the rest of this year.

57:04 Well, here's what I would think about it.

57:06 So what I I recently said that I'm a young woman who's friends with my daughter and she said to me, you know, I've known her since she was a kid. So she pops into my house, she's like, just tell I don't don't do reading.

57:16 Am I ever going to meet him?

57:17 And if I'm not just telling me, I said, I go stop thinking like that. You just want one husband, right, because yes, I stop thinking like you're you're not.

57:27 You just need to find one guy. Okay, you're thinking too big.

57:30 So like when people ask like that question, I say, don't think about the world's money. You're you're not in charge of the world's checkbook. Okay, you are not balancing the world's debit card.

57:42 You just need to worry about you.

57:44 So when you think about yourself and how are you going to manage, don't worry about the sephon market, because ninety five percent of whatever's.

57:51 On the stock pot, you're not. You don't even own any of it anyways. Okay, so what do you care.

57:56 Worry about your individual stuff, and then you're good because think about it.

58:01 If gas goes up, yeah, gas it that matters. That matters to a lot of people.

58:05 But I don't have a fleet of trucks. Okay, I have one car and I don't drive it very often.

58:09 So if I allow myself to get freaked out, like my husband actually does get free done. He's like, oh my god, do you know how much gas costs? I said, I actually don't even know what it starts with.

58:18 He goes, what I go, I have no id honest to God, Alex, Okay, I'm a psychic. If you told me, I'll give you a million dollars. You tell me how much gas is a gallon in New Jersey. I don't know if it starts with the two or three or four or five.

58:32 I don't know.

58:32 I actually do not know. Okay, I can find a missing child or a dead body. I don't know what guess starts with.

58:39 So thats my husband. I said, well, you don't even drive marriage very much either. Why do you care? Why are you so think about that? So if we just care about what we need to care about and not solving the world's problems, and.

58:52 Because think about it, the use the economy matters, but we are not in the economy's bank.

58:58 We have to worry about our own money. So we take it on and then we stress out about like you know, the index five hundred.

59:08 Well, it's it's the equivalent of us worrying about a war that's happening across the word across the world.

59:13 Like to have empathy, obviously.

59:15 Yes, yeah, but it's we have absolutely powerless to do, yes, anything to really change it.

59:22 And let's understand that that's happening for whatever reason it needs to. And so yes, you can think about it, you can read about it, you can have empathy, but put it in its proper place in your life, because don't let that be your main focus. That now you can't even function because if you're so worried about you know, I have a lot of people, I mean many people contacting me about you know. I was on a podcast I told you before you where I predicted something about the economy which was not about a recession of depression.

59:49 It was about you know, money changing, like you know, the way we would interact with money.

59:54 So I must have explained it wrong or maybe not.

59:56 People panicked, and even to this day, people are like, oh my god, I wanted to retire, but then I saw that podcast.

1:00:00 I go, do not take financial advice for me.

1:00:03 Do not not retire because of anything I said on a podcast, because I didn't mean it that way.

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1:00:18 But I said, also think about this, if you have already been taking enough measures in your own life and you can retire, retire, don't panic because again we don't need to take it along. So like, yes, when you say about the economy, and you, like you said before, it's predictable because we don't need a psychic to dolls because we it is cyclical, it will happen. But if we if you need to have a job to pay your bills, get a job. Okay, don't be like, oh my god, the economy is so bad. You know, if you need to buy, if you're a young couple, you need to buy a house, and the interest rates are high by houns, Okay, don't necessarily wait for them to go down. So don't be so consumed with every detail of the world, because that's not our job.

1:01:00 Let's do you.

1:01:01 But but by watching the nightly news and cable news and things like that, you start to feel, especially if you're in an echo chamber, and even on social media, you just keep getting fed the same thing, like if you like CNN, you're gonna watch CNN. If you like Fox, You're gonna watch Fox. Right, And if you just stay in those worlds, all the world is little watch thirty minutes, yes, correct, and the world's coming to an end.

1:01:25 You know what's interesting?

1:01:26 Crazy?

1:01:26 So why about three months ago decided I wanted a few things in my life to change, and I don't you know, I don't profess to be like a you know, a master manifestor because I don't even know I would work it that way. I feel like I know what I want and I get what I want. But you know, not accidentally. I would work hard, but I just don't even I just know that it'll happen for whatever reason.

1:01:46 So I but three months ago I decided I wanted serious things to change, and I said to my spirit, Okay, how is this gonna happen?

1:01:53 And he goes, you gotta change your thoughts, I go.

1:01:56 I actually, I actually said to my spirit, gud obviously goes and obvious because you're asking how are you gonna do it? You have to change your thoughts, he goes, because your thoughts are trained. So all you've done was change your end goal. But if you don't change your thoughts, So to answer your question, while you're watching the nightly news, okay, so you know last night when you watched at six o'clock, you panicked. Okay, so if you turn it on at six oh one tonight, because you still think the same things you thought before, so you're ready to panic. But why don't you turn it on, thinking I'm gonna turn it on because I'm gonna maybe learn something different than I did last night.

1:02:31 I'm not gonna panic tonight.

1:02:32 I'm gonna take in the information differently, process it differently, and allow my thoughts to change as a result of it, because everything is an opportunity to think different, which I don't think we do.

1:02:44 And when when.

1:02:46 Again I had that epiphany that I had to change my thoughts, I actually because your thoughts are are are habits, so you had to literally change your thoughts Like every time I was thinking, I had to remind myself, no, no, those are old.

1:03:00 But those thoughts are frequencies, right, They're literally electrical pulses put out.

1:03:06 So think about this.

1:03:07 I actually am a person who who again, not that I think I'm an expert, but kind of because I tell everybody I think I vibrate, I I do, and that's why I think I can do this work. So again the part I was missing my mark. I was vibrating really high, but I wasn't changing my thoughts fast enough in real time. So even though so so only because I think of who I am, because of the life, the work I do, and that I can change my my frequency very high, kind of lucked out that things are working my way, but I'm working too hard, I'm swimming backwards. If I can also raise my frequency and my thoughts, okay, changing, that's the key. You get there instantly, so you know, as an outsider watching the world happen,

1:03:54 stop everybody, stop panicking. Take this moment to realize that anything. If you are one of those people that are really really worried about the economy, remind yourself that you're not the bookkeeper of the world. You don't have to balance the books. You worry about your own life, your own finances, and do the things that you need to, and don't worry about the economy so much, because that's why you can't make decisions. That's why you're you can't make an investment.

1:04:19 You're you know, because you turn, Yes, you turn. You're making decisions out of fear or not making decisions out of out of fear.

1:04:28 Yes, yes, And that's and I think that's where everyone's starting to get I mean that fight or Flight is on twenty four to seven now, and it seems to just getting more ramped up. That's why I feel that there's so much, so many people cracking literally cracking literally literally cracking mentally emotionally, they're just stressed out. They don't understand what to do, and then they search for conversations like this because they're looking for answers that they're not getting anywhere else.

1:04:56 So since we since I've launched.

1:05:00 Cevishol TVR streaming platform, you know, we're in the media business, right and this interview show is obviously this podcast is in the media as well. There has been a tremendous amount of change in media, but in media and social media.

1:05:15 But where do you.

1:05:16 See the traditional like news organization, studios, television, movies.

1:05:22 I think this is it. I'll tell you that.

1:05:24 So I think you're a genius without recognizing that you're a genius because all the work that you do, as you've been doing it, you know, because you know, even though you have an end goal or end plan, let's say, sometimes we don't even have it, or it's constantly evolving. So as you do your daily work and it builds and builds and builds, I think this is it. I think that as because think about this, you're able to be as successful as you are and do new things that nobody has even thought of because you are in line with the changes that are occurring. Because you're you know, you're you're on the edge. You see, you know, people that are into the latest Apple phone or whatever. It is like you can envision things before anybody else can.

1:06:08 Say. You're right there.

1:06:09 You you know, you got fired from those two jobs early in your life, and you had the life to build this up.

1:06:15 Because you're You're it. You're our new media.

1:06:19 I don't think that people are going to watch, you know, the shows that we had been watching are no longer going to exist because people want they need to calm down. The reason why people come to people like you and watch this is because they don't want take xanax anymore. They're psychiatrist is not working, talking to the neighbors not working, and hearing different experiences from different people in a way that does hit the market, that hits home, that is a game changer, is where I believe it will be.

1:06:47 So I feel like this is how things are going to be. It's going to be more like this.

1:06:52 I don't think that.

1:06:53 There's going to be many even news stations on it, like a CNN won't even be right much longer because people there die hard scene in people once they have a mental breakdown, Okay, they they're not gonna have the They can't watch it anymore.

1:07:08 They're barely I mean the ratings are well, that's what I mean.

1:07:11 But even Whoever's number one pretty soon because we can't take it on anymore, because we can't manage our own life. So now people like watching you is like having a nice cup of warm hot tea in a nice warm blanket.

1:07:24 You know, when when.

1:07:25 You're your your fever's coming down and you're not, You're like, you feel like I got this.

1:07:29 I'm I'm I'm recovering. I'm getting better.

1:07:32 I am, because you know, when you're really sick, you're like, I can't ever imagine feeling healthy again. You know, I'm in the middle of the flu. I'm on day three. I can't walk to the refrigerator. How am I going to get in my car and drive to work? But pretty soon, once you start feeling better, you're like, oh, okay, I to my own self. So I think your show these kind of things will put like news organizations out of business because it is so sensationalized and but and people kind of like it the drama. But because we are now not able to manage our own lives. We can't watch it any longer because it does make us crack.

1:08:04 So I think it's people will feel like everything's being piled on them, but for a reason, because the universe is like, okay, we have actually literally given you guys a long time.

1:08:14 Let's get it going.

1:08:15 And you know, like COVID. When we talked about COVID, I said, COVID happened for a reason, and a lot of people died. That was terrible, but it changed the world because we all got to have dinner together, you know, we got to work from home, we got to do puzzles, and if you look at it that way, so not just the terrible things that you So I think it's the time for us to do some self inventory, to to realize what is our trigger points. Oh my god, I'm so worried about the economy. But why am I worried Because I have a million dollars in the bank and I don't have it. You know, I don't have a mortgage and I'm more than okay, so it doesn't matter what the stock market is, okay, So let me just take that off my to do list.

1:08:48 I don't need to be freaked out.

1:08:50 So if we start doing that for ourselves individually, the panic stops like it's going on, and it just helps us evolve.

1:08:57 Does that make sense?

1:08:58 Yeah, it makes all the sense. I mean, well, let me ask you this. Where do you think we talked about news organizations? But how about just movies? The world is changing, Like right now, the number one streaming platform in the world is what what do you think it is?

1:09:14 Netflix?

1:09:15 No?

1:09:16 What YouTube?

1:09:18 Oh? Well, you know I was gonna say.

1:09:20 The only reason I didn't say that is I was going to say because I do believe this is it, This is this is where it's going to be. This to me, I don't think the world yet knows that this is new TV, this is TV, but this.

1:09:36 Is literally it. So I don't believe that.

1:09:40 Yeah, there will be movies, but I don't think they're gonna be like movies like we used to see. I think it's going to be movies like documentaries about.

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1:09:59 You know, everybody's humanity raising their vibration.

1:10:03 I don't know that you're gonna see a rom com six years from now, I don't know that the latest it girl will be you know, like you know again working with her, you know, love interests and they're just friends. And at the end of the by the end of the two hour movie, you know, they're they're they fell in love.

1:10:19 Oh my god, you're my. Nobody's gonna care about those things.

1:10:22 It's gonna be this, it's gonna be YouTube, it's gonna be you, it's gonna be humanity in us.

1:10:28 That's what we're going to be interested in.

1:10:29 I mean, no more comes.

1:10:31 No. My husband loves I said, I don't want to feel happy at the end.

1:10:35 I want to I want you know, I want Hallmark's going to go out of business.

1:10:38 I know already. Yeah, yeah, yeah, but yeah, they just think about it.

1:10:43 If we're not gonna be vibrating that way, we're because you know, we're not gonna because people are not in that silly entertain me.

1:10:52 Well, let's put it this way for people to understand. In Roman times, entertainment was the colisseum. You're on to something, your body, yes, so the Colosseum was the entertainment. What was entertainment watching people basically be destroyed and rip apart, literally limb to limb, cutting heads off.

1:11:12 That was pure entertainment.

1:11:14 Then that evolved to public hangings and public beatings and all that kind of stuff. Crucifixions, all that stuff.

1:11:21 That was what that was on Saturday Night.

1:11:23 Yeah, but that was literally brought children literally children everyone.

1:11:27 Let's take a look at this guy going to get get killed tonight.

1:11:29 Yeah.

1:11:30 So that was where humanity was vibrating in their frequency at that time.

1:11:36 Right.

1:11:36 If you would show that to people today, people, most human beings.

1:11:42 Would be horrified, horrified by even things from fifty years ago. Yes, yes, one hundred years ago. We would be horrified.

1:11:53 The lynchings at Salem all that that kind of stuff, with the witch trials all that, or the Inquisition. That would be horrified because we were now we're vibrating at a higher.

1:12:05 Right frequency, So it's unacceptable. We can't even imagine that anybody would have, you know, even in my lifetime. So I I recently again because now that I have a new TV and I don't know how to use it, I have limited choices, and though my daughter reminds me, I don't. I recently watched a series that was on TV like from fifteen years ago, but I never watched it.

1:12:25 It was really popunyor so when I was watching.

1:12:28 It, I said to my husband, isn't it insane that fifteen years ago they could say this stuff?

1:12:34 Oh yeah, nowadays.

1:12:36 Okay, you can't say anything.

1:12:37 Yeah, first of all, and I said in even us, okay, now you can't do that.

1:12:46 So that's why I think that like the things.

1:12:48 That we watch, which people are like, well, that doesn't make sense, Well it does because you're right. If you go back to Roman times and what we thought was entertainment, now we're like, they're okay, horror, sick, what kind.

1:12:58 Of sull that will happen in one hundred years. Yes, they'll look back at this time and going oh my god.

1:13:03 Right, And I think that that's what I mean.

1:13:04 So like rom coms are like the silly nonsense because again, if you if you watch something from ten years ago, you're going to be surprised the language they used, the things they were able to get away with on TV or say or do that. Now people are like, that's terrible because we evolved, so we are going to continue.

1:13:21 So the things that we think are acceptable are no longer going to be. So everything like that will change but it has.

1:13:28 To, but it will happen in a much faster time period. That's why you're saying, like six years from now, things are gonna are gonna change.

1:13:35 Yeah and yeah.

1:13:36 So then in these other, these other areas of our lives, so religion that seems to be changing.

1:13:44 I think religion will want to even exist. I think what will happen.

1:13:48 So when you you're like it, come on, because I think a lot of people. Now, you know, when I was a kid, you know, you were.

1:13:55 Identified by your Hey, yeah you Catholic, you whatever. Catholic people say, well, how many people do you say I am a recovering Catholic or whatever? Me too, you know, I believe in what I believe, which is a mishmash of odell. I think most people feel that way. So I think that as people die off, you know, like my grandmother, let's say, who was Catholic?

1:14:19 Okay, she's not here anymore.

1:14:22 Pretty soon when you're a Catholic, Now all these Catholics from that generation die. Now you have younger people, and they're just mishmash of what I believe. Because don't label me as Catholic or whatever, because I'm I'm different.

1:14:36 Things that won't even exist. You know, recently a lot of people brought.

1:14:41 Up the Pope to me because you know, he's sick and all this stuff. And I thought, isn't it interesting that people that don't care, let's say, about the Catholic religion anymo longer, are still so interested in the Pope.

1:14:53 But how about other people too?

1:14:54 So I so I just you know, I sit back and I would answer questions or whatever about this, but I thought, pretty soon nobody will care about those things because it dies off we think differently. So I think religion morphs into not sectors of what we call them, but we as a human, as an evolved human being. Yeah, because pretty soon I'm not gonna I'm out of business because I no one's gonna need me because they I'm almost putting myself single handily putting myself out of business.

1:15:25 Now let me ask you this though, and this is something that I found in my journey. I have been going to psychic since I was in my teens. It is cultural for me as a Latino, it's just embedded. You know, Mom's like, you gotta go because it ant something and she's gonna tell you your future. When I was so young, even in my twenties. The reason why I searched out, and I'd love to hear your thoughts on this, The reason I searched out psychic is because I was terrified of the future. I was terrified of the unknown, right, so I constantly needed reassurance.

1:15:58 It's an addiction almost about then, absolutely that.

1:16:00 I'm like, what's going to happen? When am I going to meet my When am I when is my mentor going to show up? When am I going to make it big as a director?

1:16:07 When?

1:16:07 And I kept I kept that kept because it was so insecure and so terrified. Well, as you become more evolved, like I literally now have in my phone some of the greatest psychics in the world.

1:16:22 That you don't need to eat and I think other than happy Easter, Happy, I will be Friday, you don't be.

1:16:26 I never ever, I've never called you and go and that I need a reading. It's I can, and I know you would give me one. But it's not something I search anymore.

1:16:36 It's because because.

1:16:37 You get it now, it doesn't.

1:16:38 Mean here's the thing.

1:16:39 If you're constantly needing the answers, okay, Because I tell people think about this. The reason to come to me is not because I'm your therapist. You because you are struggling in one area to area so much and you are trying to do self invitory. You can't get there, so you need a little help. If you're you're a headache and you don't want to take a tile and all, maybe you need so you'll take one and and okay, usually get whatever. So you may need me because you can't get pass this hump, and so let's let me help you, okay. But other than that, everything you need is within you because because again when these challenges take place, instead of being like son of a uh, why is this happening, remind yourself it's happening for a reason. And

1:17:23 now dig deep and say, okay, if I don't know the reason why it's happening, because we might not know the reason for years, right or until we're on the other side, which is fine, So let's not worry about the reason.

1:17:34 But now let's say how am I going to manage this? Because this is I'm not I don't have time to get mad, get confused or poor me.

1:17:42 This is because change is happening, so now so be ready. Okay, because the universe has been telling me for a while, so be ready, because all the answers are within, and they are so I you know. I tell people all that.

1:17:53 Not not always, but more recently. Listen, they're like, when can I call you again? I go, well, you can call me any time, anytime you need me, but you also don't need.

1:18:04 To call me, because again, I am not telling anybody usually anything they don't already know. I tell people all the time the person that is the most surprised in the reading is me because I don't know you.

1:18:15 So I'm like, whoa, you're doing what you know, but you know because you're confirming.

1:18:20 So what you're surprised about is the future things I'm telling you, But you don't even need me to tell you because the future is still gonna happen and you'll know.

1:18:26 We're you just supposed to know.

1:18:29 So I tell people you can contact me whenever you need to, but you don't need to, and try to manage the panic that you have that feels like you're incapable of getting to the other side, because you absolutely are.

1:18:42 But the thing, the biggest message of this entire conversation is something that I preach constantly to people, is that the power is within you.

1:18:52 I mean, yes, one of.

1:18:54 The descent and masters right there, Jesus Yes said that like everything I could do, you could do it more. But the thing that that I find so fascinating is when you are the people's pain and now we're going into Buddhism. People's pain is because they associate or give their power away to things outside of them.

1:19:11 So it's their career, it's that person, it's that thing of my car. If anything happens to my car, my life is over. Anything happens to my job, my life is over.

1:19:21 This person leaves me, like my job's over if the economy the stock market crash.

1:19:26 So they've given.

1:19:27 Their power to the outside world, which is an absolute recipe for disaster within your life because you can't control anything.

1:19:37 Outside of you.

1:19:39 Our ego says we can't, but we truly have no power other than how we think, yes, and what is inside of us. So that's why when you see these masters who have had the pleasure of interviewing, speaking to, and being in the presence of you see these masters who are completely grounded within themselves right, and all the answers are within themselves. They were able to tap that stuff in then the outside world. Literally that could be in the middle of a storm and they are just as peaceful.

1:20:09 Listen, they're sitting there underneath the tree. The hurricane's going on, and there's not a hair that's moving on their head because it's not affecting them.

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1:20:29 You know, I have an interesting, you know, embarrassing thing to admit. I so I came into Austin for a few days to come on the show. But I also came because I was going to do a photo shoot. I you know, don't even take selfie.

1:20:41 So I thought, you know what, I gonna up my game and I get a new website. You know. She said, you gotta get a couple of pictures. I said, I don't have any issues. You have a professional Well, so I did it. So I had this whole photo shoot thing. Whatever. I show up yesterday and everything just went south. I said to.

1:20:58 Somebody that came with me, that you accompanying me, uh, you know, my business manager. Let's say I said, in the morning, it's gonna go wrong. It's not gonna go We're gonna actually be back in the hotel, and you're gonna.

1:21:08 Be my photographer's question. Stop thinking negative, I go listen. Yeah, I said, listen. Nobody wants to work better than me. It's not going to I just know.

1:21:17 So you knew, So you knew before you walked in that there was something. You didn't know what was gonna go wrong, but you knew something was right.

1:21:22 And because so, and I think the reason again the universe is telling me is like, have a game plan, because you're still gonna get your pictures.

1:21:30 She's not gonna get him the way you did.

1:21:32 But but what's interesting is that not only did it okay, so that happened, but then something happened with me and this person the photographer that okay, So not only did it not go right, then there was like money involved and so the whole thing went south. All right, So that person's not gonna do it. We made makeshift whatever, which are fabulous. And now we have this hanging money issue.

1:21:55 And I was really angry about it last night, and I don't really get angry about money. And I kept thinking, how can this person doesn't see obviously who I see?

1:22:04 You owe me my money back? You know I paid for service you didn't provide it.

1:22:07 I get my money back, I said this morning on the way over here to my business Marriager, I said, you know what, maybe that person needed money.

1:22:14 So maybe when that listen.

1:22:18 Two days ago before Jan Berenet taught me love, would not have been thinking.

1:22:23 That and that wouldn't it be?

1:22:25 It does happened to me a lot of times too in my life. I think it happens to a lot of people that there's a money issue. You don't get a refine, right you have you borrow, let someone borrowing doesn't come back a lot of stuff. As I started to do, I started to let go of those things. And as if you start to let go of these things in love, then you get back threefold, fourfold.

1:22:44 It's just the way it is. If you get caught up in the moment, you just got to go just trust right right, have faith you'll be.

1:22:51 Fine, right right.

1:22:53 Because like when I had that feeling in the morning, it was gonna work out, and I was resigned to it.

1:22:58 So I actually went through the motion. I went to the location.

1:23:02 I actually said to the uber guy, stick around. I didn't even know how to get him to stick around. He's like oh, that's a whole thing with the app. I go, hold on, so my business manager did, I go, can you wait eleven It's gonna take less than eleven minute second, but I gotta see this through.

1:23:14 So I did. I wasn't pandied because I just knew what was gonna happen.

1:23:17 But then last night the money thing bothered me until I realized that, wait a minute, let me stop this because whatever's gonna.

1:23:22 Happen with the money is gonna happen. Who cares.

1:23:25 I'm here for a reason. I got what I needed and then let that go and you'll be fine. And and so so I learn every day. You know, I think I'm like, oh, but but it because it's an opportunity to look at it differently.

1:23:39 And it changed my mood.

1:23:40 It changed everything because it reminded me because because then I didn't feel like, oh I got screwed. I felt like, think about this. Maybe that person, for whatever reason, needed the.

1:23:50 Money, because you know, we don't know where money's gonna come from. So I so I book a service.

1:23:55 They get the money in the moment or whatever it answers their thing. Maybe now they can't pay me back whatever. Maybe I don't or they will or who knows whatever. So instead of me get so freaked out about what's gonna happen, let it just go.

1:24:09 For now because and and it changed everything.

1:24:12 Because now I don't even I don't want to say I don't care because by the way, it would like my money back out, but am I not get it back or whatever?

1:24:19 It might come back in another way? Yes, right, Well I means arguably being on the show you're going.

1:24:24 To do okay, agreed, agreed, agreed.

1:24:28 I think there might be some energy coming towards you.

1:24:30 Correct, I agree, you know, so it all works, It all works out in the way it's supposed.

1:24:34 To, right, and to not it reminded me don't let my feathers get ruffled. So even though it was a transaction, I was involved, and then I got mad and whatever.

1:24:44 And I'm not saying, don't get mad.

1:24:45 If if if in fifty years, does it matter, if on your deathbed, does it really matter?

1:24:51 It doesn't even matter now, right, you know?

1:24:54 It didn't even And again took me this this whole Jean Benet thing to remind me that even that doesn't matter. Who cares, It doesn't matter because I can still do what I need to do, it doesn't matter, and let it go and then let's see what happens.

1:25:11 And you're right.

1:25:12 So I'm going to ask you the same questions I asked you before. I love to see if the answers are different that I ask all my guests. What is your definition of living a fulfilled life?

1:25:22 I don't know what I said last time, but now I say is living from love.

1:25:26 If you had a chance to go back in time and speak to little Onette, what advice would you give her?

1:25:30 Same ans are well done and love spread love?

1:25:35 How do you define God or source love? What is love?

1:25:39 I can't even put it into words.

1:25:42 I think before I thought I was, you know, an expert, because it's again, I didn't know what love was until Jean and I put love in my heart for my kidnapper, which is not words. She's put a feeling, yeah, you know, just like my dog when you see when I see my dog, I I it's a fee. My love for my dog is what I It's not the words, Oh here, come here, Fred, It's how I feel. So when I felt love for my kidnapper, it was my feeling. So it's there's no words it's a feeling.

1:26:16 Does that make sense?

1:26:17 It makes.

1:26:18 If you could ask God or Source one question, what would it be.

1:26:22 I don't think I would. I would say I don't think I would ask a question because I think that I do believe that things happen with the way they're supposed to do.

1:26:33 And if God in Source wants me to know, they'll let me know. I think I would. I would.

1:26:37 I would just say thank you. I wouldn't ask the question. I would say, step you know, thank you for letting me even talk to you. And I would say thank you. I don't I don't want to answer that question.

1:26:48 And what is the ultimate purpose of life? Love? I feel here?

1:26:54 Yeah, listen.

1:26:55 If I don't, I I think I have to go back and rewatch the first one with you, because I think it's very different.

1:27:00 I don't think I was.

1:27:02 Oh, it's a very different energy than I.

1:27:04 Can you feel it?

1:27:05 There's no question?

1:27:06 Can you?

1:27:06 But Okay, interestingly enough, in this you don't obviously have said, do you not saying I'm don't know how I'm spreading.

1:27:14 I'll tell you.

1:27:14 I'll tell you from my point of view. Yeah, I'm fairly sensitive to these things.

1:27:18 You you're who you are has not changed.

1:27:21 This this kind of crazy East Coast energy that you bring into the room, which I adore, is not changed, but the feeling is a little different. The yeah, the approach, and people can go back and watch the other episode and and and see for themselves. I think the energy that you were bringing the other time, it's the same persons, same kind energy, same loving energy, but it's just different.

1:27:46 There's a shift that happened within you that your approach to things is a little bit different. So I can feel that different approaches and that different energy that's unspoken right right, It truly is, but it's it's not like you've changed as a human being. You're literally the same person, but the way the energy is coming through, the way you're transmitting it is completely different. So like when I go into a meditation, I'll walk in, I'll go in and I'll you know, do an hour and a half maybe two hours of then meditation. I'll walk out of my office and go into the house and I and my girls will come to me and they're like, oh, you just meditated.

1:28:27 Right, because it's not I'm no different, but they.

1:28:31 It admits it's just they get it.

1:28:34 It's you can.

1:28:36 You can sense it, and that's what I sense with you. It's not something I can I can't grab onto it, right, but I can feel.

1:28:42 It because it's a feeling, because it's different. And again that's why I said, you know, how would I describle up? You can't describe up because it's a feeling. And that's the difference of And so going forward, now say again because not once you have it, I don't.

1:29:00 I don't think you cannot have it.

1:29:01 Because if I could love my kidnapper and honest to God, not only want to send him up.

1:29:09 But actually love him, because I'm now.

1:29:11 Seeing it from his point of view, I no longer which I didn't ever do. I didn't have empathy, but I but love makes you do all those things. I feel sorry for him.

1:29:20 I'll tell you what I mean.

1:29:21 My my first book, which is Shooting for the Mob, the movie about me making a twenty million dollar movie for the Mob, that gangster you know, that Mafia Guy is probably one of the most dramatic things. I went through a year with this cyberpath sociopath that was throughout my life, right, Yeah, for a year.

1:29:42 I'd say.

1:29:43 Within the last few years, I've actually like if I ever saw him again, I would give him a hug. I would think that thank you for putting me through what you put me through, because it.

1:29:52 Made me who I am.

1:29:53 And I wouldn't have gone down the path of opening up my first podcast trying to help film it because I had been hurt so badly in the process of trying to make a film that I wanted to help other filmmakers, which then of course evolved into what we're doing today.

1:30:08 I wouldn't have gone down that path. You know.

1:30:10 If I would have made it big, then we'll be right back after a word from our sponsor. And now back to the show. Let's say I would have paid that twenty minute down maybe and all of a sudden get all this and I would have gone down the Hollywood path right and worked with all the big stars, and I would not be here. It just wouldn't have happened.

1:30:34 So I'm very grateful for him, and I do. Even still alive, I still wish him nothing but love because I know he's in a lot of pain.

1:30:43 He went through a lot of pain.

1:30:45 He has a very hurt human being, right because.

1:30:47 You can go from your pain and now you see it from his point of view, and you empathize for him and I feel love for him. It changes your life, It changes the way you think about things.

1:30:59 Would you think it's almost like having a mini life review.

1:31:02 I would one percent agree. And I think I've said that to so Christine.

1:31:07 Who's with me, who is my business manager, I said, I think I actually said those words. Within two days, you know, Austin changed me. I did a lot of great drinking and eating and a lot of food, but kind of an epiphany here.

1:31:20 And it is, you know, something that I'll never forget in.

1:31:24 My entire life, because because it was like a life review, it took like a these little nuggets of things that have happened here are so transformative that I feel completely different. You know, I have something even like on the fight here, Okay, I knew something big was gonna happen when I was here, I didn't know.

1:31:43 Exactly what I mean.

1:31:44 I thought, oh, I'm gonna do the genre and anything, but I wasn't really even getting it. Then at one point at the end of the flight, it was like really really really choppy, like so much so, like even the pilot seemed nervous, Like I even thought, not a great song.

1:32:00 But you know what I felt.

1:32:02 I actually was reading something and I was so like could care less that I thought, well if if I die now, like I actually thought like, actually could happen, No problem, didn't even I wasn't like even scared for a moment, and it actually yeah, because I was just like and then I thought, wait a minute, it actually this could happen.

1:32:25 You're not afraid.

1:32:26 And then I realized like, okay, hey, get ready for the next three days in Austin, because this is just the beginning of the change. And then somebody that I was with last night said, hey, did you hear about that crazy flight my boss?

1:32:39 I go, I was on that same flight.

1:32:40 They're like, she goes, that's scared the holy out of my husband out of my boss. I go, Actually, I was on the same flight. I go. I wasn't afraid at all, And she goes, what was I go, He's right, he's not exaggerate. But but again, it reminded me of how this big transformation was gonna take place here.

1:32:58 It's it's as beautiful.

1:33:00 Where can people find out more about you and the amazing work you're done at.

1:33:03 An eprica dot com. Once again, I'm in the middle of changing my website. So you can also go to ar spirits at aol dot com for now to find me.

1:33:14 Is that an email?

1:33:16 That's an email?

1:33:17 Oh God, bless you. I can't believe you actually said that.

1:33:19 Yep, I said it because my unlike you, my website game isn't where it needs to be.

1:33:27 And so at any moment, you know, I'd like to say that I uh, you know, I'm Kim Kardashian and I crashed the internet.

1:33:35 I don't know if I crashed or if you just crashed your website.

1:33:38 That it's a welly website that nobody can get on. So that's why I said it. But you know, I don't care if I get a zillion emails because I'm flattered. That's great. I don't want to help people, so.

1:33:50 You know, yeah, yeah, and you do.

1:33:54 And you have on your website you can book sessions with you and all that stuff. Yes, yes, all right, well I think you'll be okay, you'll do it.

1:34:02 I agree, And I want to thank you for you know, the opportunity coming here and being here in person, and it's beautiful and it feels great.

1:34:10 And do you have any party messages for the audience.

1:34:12 I feel ridiculous. Love each other, love yourself, feel love. You know, love is love is.

1:34:20 It's all you need, as the Beatles all you.

1:34:22 Need, and it is the answer. I mean again, it seems so hokey, but it's true.

1:34:26 You're just like you're just talking about Beatles songs.

1:34:28 At this point, I actually just get the lyrics out and just like reading I do, I should just be like.

1:34:36 Okay, hold on, okay, but you know.

1:34:38 Your love is all you need.

1:34:42 Because it actually is the truth.

1:34:43 And I didn't know it know it until now and I do know it and I do think it's will change my life. And again, you know everything I said about the shaman anything is not again, I am not looking for any problems, any praise. I don't want to get anyone in trouble. It's the message of love one and that is all that I'm trying to say.

1:35:04 I am not that is it is yes of love.

1:35:08 Yeah, And it is always a pleasure talking to you. And thank you so much for coming down here. And I appreciate the work you're doing to help waken this planet.

1:35:15 So thanks, appreciate you, thank.

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